Lookoutlady’s Marsh

May 25, 2009, 9:45 am
Filed under: Family, granddaughter, Life

Living one day at a time.

Memorial Day–remembering past lives and service of  our military, also those serving now at home and deployed.  My father is in the American Legion and there will be a service around the flagpole in a local cemetery this morning at 11.  Since he is doing part of the service, I need to close work and go.

This past month has been one of those you wish you could–forget, do over, skip past–my Mother has be diagnosed with a renal pelvis cancer.  There are some options but at my Mom’s age and weight they are not the choices.  I can’t accept that there is no way to remove this tumor, so have spent hours on the Internet searching.  Have discovered one method that is minimally invasive and have now spent more hours looking for someplace closer than Japan that does it.  We do have an appt. with her Dr. the first of June to discuss this as an option and hopefully a referral to a place.  I have printed over 50 pages of info and plan to take them with me when we go.

RJ has discovered the joy of walking where she wants to go, tilts her head in that direction, puts her shoulders back and off she goes in the toddler waddle.  Oh the changes that makes in her independence.

The woods behind my house is home to one remaining feral cat.  My next door neighbor keeps food out for her and this spring noticed she was going to have kittens.  There is a white oak tree about 20 feet from the edge of the woods and like all older white oaks is hollow.  This one has an opening about 2 feet up the trunk.  Knottie(white min. poodle) was having a hissy fit around and around the base of the tree.  Mama cat jumps out of the hollow and takes off for the woods–Knottie right behind barking.  Almost to the edge she changes her mind about leaving her kittens does an about face, Knottie yelps in a high pitch about faces and now Mama cat is chasing him.  By the time he gets to me, she turns, sits down and starts to lick her paws.  He is ready to go in the house.

Have now seen the kittens, there are 3:  one yellow and two gray striped.


November 13, 2008, 11:08 am
Filed under: God, Life

By May Sarton

“It is a mellow day, very gentle. The ash has lost its leaves and when I went out to get the mail and stopped to look up at it, I rejoiced to think that soon everything here will be honed down to structure. It is all a rich farewell now to leaves, to color. I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. Eliot’s statement comes back to me these days:
“Teach us to care and not to care
Teach us to sit still.”
Does anything in nature despair except man? Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain. Sit it out. Let it go.”

Source: Journal of a Solitude

The quote above was published on “Inward-Outward” blog that I  try to read each day.

We are entering winter on the east coast, northern hemisphere not just in terms of weather but also in our ecomony.  I heard something from my ex this morning I never anticipated hearing.  It had to do with debt and the desire not to be so much in debt.  That was one issue in the 20 years of marriage that we did not agree.  So to hear those words this morning was a, duh, what took you so long to understand that(I just thought that, did not say it).  I just smiled and agreed to pull the business inventory tighter so room could be freed in the warehouse for some of his inventory.  Discussed how one of the outside rooms could be converted into a showroom, thus eliminating a showroom where additional rent is being paid.  He like most of us are trying to get as tight as we can to survive this downturn.  Having been in business 24 years now, this is not the first downturn, but looks to be a much deeper way to the bottom.

As the quote above reminds, it is but a season and God is here!

October 20, 2008, 10:05 am
Filed under: Friends, God, grateful, Life

Many of us experience a sense of God in nature; in a beautiful sunset or in the sure and certain sunrise that pours over the ocean. There are entire novels and spiritual journeys written about finding God in the beauty of the world’s landscapes.
But most often, if we are paying attention, we experience God in the presence of another person. Perhaps the image of God will show itself to us in the kindness of a stranger who, seeing that we only have one or two items, lets us go ahead in the line at the grocery store. Sometimes we experience the divine when someone listens to us. Perhaps we will see the image of God in the person who calls us when we are feeling down. Or perhaps God is seen in the person who makes us laugh.

One of the first things to be noticed was the beautiful shock of white hair….the kind of white that we maturing females wish for…not the muddy gray that I’m growing.  The second was her shoulders fit under my arms and I’m average height.  The smile and twinkle in her eyes were what got you, from that point on  this was Sylvia.  A unique  and very special person, who became a part of the fabric of my life and lives of those in our chapter of ABWA, the church she attended, those at the coffee house she frequented and the children she served as an advocate.  Syl was quiet and would let shenanigans flow around her and when you least expected it out she would come with a one-liner that would send us into laughter.


“What I’m looking for is a blessing that’s not in disguise.” Kitty O’Neill Collins


October 16, 2008, 10:43 am
Filed under: church, economy, Life



As Christians we are to be “anxious about nothing”, fear is what lots of folks are feeling with the markets tanking and decreased means to pay off debt(car loans, education loans not to mention credit card and house debt). I have seen more folks paying for things out of envelopes containing cash(Dave Ramsey Finicial Peace Unv.) in the past couple of weeks. Our gov’t. and Wall Street need to heed the lessons.

As a Methodist I have started reading some of what John Wesley wrote and even in todays post modern times, what he said is so revelvant:

John Wesley, the founder of Methodism said the following about money
“We ought to gain all we can gain but this it is certain we ought not to do; we ought not to gain money at the expense of life, nor at the expense of our health. “”Having, First, gained all you can, and, Secondly saved all you can, Then ‘give all you can.'”He said the purpose of earning and saving is giving and that you should then give to the following:
“First you should give to yourself–food, clothes, shelter–what moderate living requires. Second, you should give to your family and employees providing for their needs. Third, if there is still money left, you should give to the household of faith–other Christians. Fourth, you should give to all men in need.”
This is what he thought it meant to “lay up” treasure and reasons to set aside money:
To pay your debts for this is right.
To provide yourself the necessities of life.
To provide for your family is your duty.
Necessary investment to carry on business.
“When I have money, I get rid of it quickly, lest it find a way into my heart.”

What more needs to be said?

October 9, 2008, 9:40 am
Filed under: church, Friends, God, grateful, Life

fail owned pwned picturesYep, this has been my week.

We did have a good time at choir last night.  I sing tenor as do 2 other women and generally that is considered a “man’s” part.  The director of the choir will refer to the tenor and bass parts with a “ok, men now…”.  Last night we females used our music to hide the fact we had stuck mustaches under our noses.  The rest of the choir noticed our addition and were having a hard time singing, the director did not look up from the music sheet until about half way through, at which point we all dissolved into laughter.  I had tears of laughter in my eyes the rest of the way and when we had gone into the sanctuary to sing the song for Sunday, I messed up and sang send instead of tend in the “Here I Am Lord” arrangement, you know “I will tend the poor and lame.”  That so tickled the tenor next to me he could not get it back together to finish the song.

Thank you, Lord for laughter! 

Things go to s**t
October 7, 2008, 1:46 pm
Filed under: Family, God, home, Life

….”Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life…Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”


It is only Tuesday and this week so far is chaos.  I really need to take the above to mind and soul.

My car is deader than a couch on a sandbar for 10 years.  It is now back in my garage and a new computer has been ordered…week to 10 days.  Thankfully I’m able to use Mother’s car.  This occurred yesterday morning as I was trying to head to work and since it was Monday by my parent’s house to drop of Knottie, since I had class.  Called HWB when car would not start and he was already gone, called Dad, he came and picked us up, dropped him and Knottie at his house taking Mom’s car to get to work.  Afternoon and Dad calls and tells me he took car to Sears for a new battery and when it was replaced all electrical thingys quit working, causing Sears guy to shrug and say “oops”.  Dad then took car to dealership and learned it was “probably” computer-none in stock, has to be ordered…$600 and another $200 to put it in.  MIGHT just fix problem.  It is now on order.  Another car not an option at this point, market down too much to cash out stock to pay for another car.

Headed for class leaving work at 6 pm, wreck on the 2-lane high rise bridge to next town…arrived at class at 7, the guy who runs the power point also stuck in same jam, so did not miss the media part of class.  Why is it that 1 hour spent sitting in your car not moving is so much longer than an hour spent with friends having a good time?

Will continue to use Mom’s car.  Have been waiting a month for the call that the 50 pounds of fresh shrimp I ordered were ready–know when the call comes?  Right, this morning.  Off I go to get the shrimp, which this year I paid more to have already headed.  Got them to put extra ice, so they can wait until after work to be portioned and packed for the freezer.  Fresh caught shrimp for supper tonight.  Best taste ever!

Dad has to go in for ultrasound and x-rays tomorrow, which is another added to this short week.  Praying that all is well and no leaking around the graft.  I can usually not let things get to me, but this has been a bit much.  Mom stresses quickly and she is getting so frail that it is not good for her.  I hate that I have added to her plate.  I think I’ll borrow some of HWS’s and RJ’s bibs for us.

$$$ meltdown
September 30, 2008, 12:21 pm
Filed under: Gov't, Life, vision

IMHO this mess start more than a decade ago.

In 1994 Congress had a Republican Majority. The community act went into affect Jan. 1995. It was hailed as a bi-partisan bill very much favored by Republicans who had picked up the issue from democratic lobby groups after gaining power in the House.

In 2003 in spite of having the absolute majority in Congress and Senate, the proposed regulatory changes did not pass when Bush proposed them.

Everybody was making money, the gravy train was running and no one wanted to change anything, or jump for fear of being left behind. It only stopped last year when the train wreck already happened.

The current mess of our financial sector cannot uniquely be attributed to Democrats or Republicans. It is collective greed on both sides of the aisle, and the unwillingness to stop when it became apparent that the system took on a life of its own. Warren Buffet warned about the situation and the re-insurance of debt issuances as having the potential of a weapon of mass destruction of or our economy as far back as 2005. No one wanted to hear about it, borrowers (middle income and poor) could get much bigger houses than they really could afford, mortgage their homes to feed their consumption, bankers were able to lend without needing to know their borrowers since they could resell their loans to Walls Street, and Wall Street loved the commission it earned repackaging, the lure of easy money drove everybody to collective blindness. At the level of government, the appearance prevailed that the economy was humming along even though public and private debt drew at alarming rates and middle class income actually shrunk. State governments filled their coffers from the windfall of growing property taxes. It was too good to be true, and in the end that is precisely what it was.