Lookoutlady’s Marsh

October 20, 2008, 10:05 am
Filed under: Friends, God, grateful, Life

Many of us experience a sense of God in nature; in a beautiful sunset or in the sure and certain sunrise that pours over the ocean. There are entire novels and spiritual journeys written about finding God in the beauty of the world’s landscapes.
But most often, if we are paying attention, we experience God in the presence of another person. Perhaps the image of God will show itself to us in the kindness of a stranger who, seeing that we only have one or two items, lets us go ahead in the line at the grocery store. Sometimes we experience the divine when someone listens to us. Perhaps we will see the image of God in the person who calls us when we are feeling down. Or perhaps God is seen in the person who makes us laugh.

One of the first things to be noticed was the beautiful shock of white hair….the kind of white that we maturing females wish for…not the muddy gray that I’m growing.  The second was her shoulders fit under my arms and I’m average height.  The smile and twinkle in her eyes were what got you, from that point on  this was Sylvia.  A unique  and very special person, who became a part of the fabric of my life and lives of those in our chapter of ABWA, the church she attended, those at the coffee house she frequented and the children she served as an advocate.  Syl was quiet and would let shenanigans flow around her and when you least expected it out she would come with a one-liner that would send us into laughter.


“What I’m looking for is a blessing that’s not in disguise.” Kitty O’Neill Collins



October 9, 2008, 9:40 am
Filed under: church, Friends, God, grateful, Life

fail owned pwned picturesYep, this has been my week.

We did have a good time at choir last night.  I sing tenor as do 2 other women and generally that is considered a “man’s” part.  The director of the choir will refer to the tenor and bass parts with a “ok, men now…”.  Last night we females used our music to hide the fact we had stuck mustaches under our noses.  The rest of the choir noticed our addition and were having a hard time singing, the director did not look up from the music sheet until about half way through, at which point we all dissolved into laughter.  I had tears of laughter in my eyes the rest of the way and when we had gone into the sanctuary to sing the song for Sunday, I messed up and sang send instead of tend in the “Here I Am Lord” arrangement, you know “I will tend the poor and lame.”  That so tickled the tenor next to me he could not get it back together to finish the song.

Thank you, Lord for laughter! 

What is…
May 22, 2008, 3:05 pm
Filed under: Family, God, grandson, grateful, Life

Noticing What Is
Eugene Peterson
“We wake up each morning to a world we did not make. How did it get here? How did we get here? We open our eyes and see that ‘old bowling ball the sun’ careen over the horizon. We wiggle our toes. A mockingbird takes off and improvises on themes set down by robins, vireos, and wrens, and we marvel at the intricacies…. There is so much here–around, above, below, inside, outside. Even with the help of poets and scientists we can account for very little of it. We notice this, then that…. Before long we are looking out through telescopes and down into microscopes, curious, fascinated by this endless proliferation of sheer Is-ness–color and shape and texture and sound.

After awhile we get used to it and quit noticing. We get narrowed down into something small and constricting. Somewhere along the way this exponential expansion of awareness, this wide-eyed looking around, this sheer untaught delight in what is here, reverses itself: the world contracts; we are reduced to a life of routine through which we sleepwalk. But not for long. Something always shows up to jar us awake.”
from Christ Plays in Ten Thousand Places

I read this a couple of days ago and thought about the blessing that an 18 month grandson (HWS) provides in opening our eyes to all that is around us–from the dust bunnies under the bed to the bark of the woodpecker tree.


April 18, 2008, 11:48 am
Filed under: Family, grateful, Life

With the advent of some warm sunny days, business has picked up at work, nights are either filled with meetings or getting by to hold and snuggle with my grand kids.  RJ is starting to smile and she is growing and changing every time I see her, she is moving from newborn to baby.  HWS is now aware of who “Sissy” is and will point to her when asked.

There was an unexpected visitor to their house last night around 11:30.  Young lady driving was also texting and ran off road between 2 huge Magnolias, over 6 foot berm taking out 2 plantings, down the berm and into He Who Builds dually, hitting it in the rear wheels and moving it 2 feet.  The noise woke the dogs, who barked and then settled back down to sleep (remember this is a household with new baby, so sleep is precious and starts early in the evening).  DIL shook He Who Builds 3 or 4 times telling him she heard the doorbell.  He finally gets up, put on his britches, goes to the door and sees young lady running down the street.  Comes out of the house, still somewhat sleep befuddled and tries to understand how a Trailblazer is parked in his driveway against his truck in the wrong direction.  Thankfully, no one is hurt, damage to truck is minimal, Trailblazer more extensively damaged and texting young lady has probably learned a lesson.  After police, tow truck and lots more people, son and DIL are finally back in bed just in time for RJ’s 2 am feeding.

After checking out the tracks this morning, I am amazed that the texting young lady threaded the needle between the Magnolias.  Thanks be to God all are well!

April 4, 2008, 10:59 am
Filed under: Family, granddaughter, grandson, grateful, Life

Just realized looking at the date of the last post it has been a week.  And to say that again IT HAS BEEN A WEEK!  The addition of RJ to our family has mixed all manner of things.  My personal commitments, work, and helping care for HWS have left little time for much else except falling into bed exhausted.  When does the second wind come?

Today dawned warmer, so the fog is thick and just starting to swirl as the wind picks up.  Reminds me of my life right now.

The retreat I was on, that seems ages ago, added a point to grateful fors that I am not real anxious to add–what today am I least grateful for?  In thinking about that each night, I find that I also move to the next step, if I’m not grateful for it, Why? and How does it get changed to something I can be grateful for?

I try to fall asleep at night thinking on one of my grateful fors.  Much better than counting sheep.

Holy Week
March 20, 2008, 4:31 pm
Filed under: church, God, grateful, Life

Today is Maudy Thursday and will be observed with communion and stripping of the church till all is left in darkness, even the Christ candle.  We will leave in silence.  I have a hard time not crying every year at this service.  That God should love us so much that His son died an awful death for us.

Last night, on Spy Wednesday or betrayal day, the choir sang two selections at the AME Zion church.  I was happy to see that more of church who tries members were present than were the AME folks.  As is the case, it started about 10 minutes late, but lasted until 8:30.  Ended with lots of hugs and God bless you.

Grateful for:

  1. Bradford pears in full bloom
  2. Azaleas starting to pot open
  3. Kindermusic and watching HWS dance
  4. Carolina in NCAA tourney
  5. March madness and Easter all on the same weekend

“New Sins”
March 11, 2008, 12:45 pm
Filed under: church, grateful, Life

I read last night that the Vatican had declared more deadly sins.

  • Don’t pollute.
  • Don’t waste.
  • Don’t clone your babysitter.
  • Don’t genetically alter your eyes to match your gown. 
  • Don’t traffic drugs (This is new?)
  • Don’t have obscene wealth

What is this all about?  Sin is sin.  Even if the words or actions change in modern times, sin has been with us for a long, long time.  Just questioning?

Grateful for:

  1. songs choir has been working on for Lent and Easter
  2. preparing for retreat
  3. retreat
  4. sushi (in the middle of the week, what a delight)